So I almost died again recently. Not how I wanted to start 2014....but I choose to look at it as God's little way of reminding me that His hand is entirely on my shoulder and only He knows what's coming for me.
Ok so I didn't almost actually die. But it could have been really bad. We have had the strangest fog I have ever seen out here. Where I live it is absolutely flat. Like you can see for MILES. So there's no place for fog to settle, like in a low spot. Instead, we will just have 100 square miles of the thickest fog you've ever seen.
I got up one day and of course had to go to work. We've had fog out here before but it's never been this bad. The road that I live on has lots of tanker trucks and they haul @$$ out here. So even if the fog is thick, you need to be going something close to their speed so when they do finally see you, they have time to slow down. So I'm going along, trying to pay attention and look for land marks, but there really aren't a lot of them on my road.
Oh and visibility was about 30 feet.
So I'm going along and then all of a sudden I realize that I am 30 feet away from the stop sign. The only stop sign on my road...the one that intersects with the interstate, a 4 lane road. I slammed on my breaks but the road was so slick with fog that I just slid. And because the fog was so thick I couldn't even see if there were any cars coming. I slid from 30 feet behind the stop sign, across the two north bound lanes and finally came to a stop right in the middle of the turn-around with out crossing into the south bound lanes. Right as I slid to a stop an 18-wheeler flew by right in front of my face and a big white duly blew by behind me.
So essentially I was seconds/feet away from becoming a human-car ping pong ball. I would not have won that fight. NO way. So as I caught my breath, I thanked God for allowing my to start my day with such an appreciation of him and then I took my first sip of coffee, noticing that it tasted far more amazing than it had the day before.
So let's all take a second to thank God for yet again deciding to keep me alive. I must really be an excellent source of comedy for Him.
So yeah, that's been fun. Other than that I've just been trying to get my life together...which I'm always been trying to do, but it seems to actually be coming together these days. I've been running, which I've always had a mental block towards, but it's working out for me. Today I actually ran FURTHER than my scheduled workout required. AND I felt really good after the work out. So good that I worked out some more. I have not been terribly consistent with my running, but I have still improved every time I have run. My pace is better in general, my time is better in general, my intervals when I do interval training are WAY better, and of course my endurance is growing too.
I'm kind of excited because I've never felt "good" after a run. But it's finally working out for me. My biggest struggle has been finding the right music to listen to while I run. I finally figured out that I don't really need music so much as I need a coach. I need someone yelling, maybe not AT me but FOR me. Pushing me, encouraging me, calling me to be more than I think I am so I can discover who God made me to be.
Well a while back I discovered a channel on YouTube that does extremely well done motivational videos. The page is under the name of Mateusz M. This person grafts together some of the best speeches from real life and from movies of coaches and the things they say to get their people pumped. The visual aspect of the videos is also pretty awesome. So what I've started doing is pulling up youtube before I run, going to this page, and just hitting the "Play All" button and shove my phone in my pocket. So the whole time I'm running I'm listening to some of the best coaches, real and fake, pushing me personally, calling me to run harder, to move with more purpose and today was the best run I've ever had. Below I have shared the first video from this channel that I ever watched. It's still one of my favorites. It's called Why Do We Fall?
We all have challenges. We all have struggles. We all have obstacles. We all fail. But YOU can get up and try again. But I challenge you to rise above those circumstances to be more than what YOU THINK you can be and instead be what GOD MADE you to be.